Assalamualaikum wbt.
Lama tidak menulis, banyak yang berlaku dalam hidup aku sejak beberapa bulan ni. Hati naik turun, gembira, sedih, kecewa bercampur-campur. Aku sedang mencari kekuatan diri untuk menghadapi setiap yang berlaku, berusaha berubah dan membuktikan yang aku akan menjadi insan yang lebih baik.
Insan tersayang berpesan, "Ubah diri dulu, Allah dan Rasul dalam setiap perkara dan baru fikir nak convince orang untuk terima awak".
Jumaat tadi, iman di masjid kariah aku membacakan doa yang cukup menyentuh hati. Cukup bermakna, dan sayu sekali. Aku hampir menitiskan air mata.
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Ya Allah, berikanlah kami jodoh yang dapat memimpin tangan kami ke syurga.
Ya Allah, rezekikan kami isteri yang sentiasa mengajak kami kepada Islam,
Ya Allah, rezekikan kami isteri yang menghalang kami dari maksiat,
Ya Allah, rezekikan kami isteri yang sentiasa menjaga kehormatan dan memelihara diri,,
Ya Allah, rezekikan kami sahabat yang sentiasa memberi peringatan kepada kami,
Ya Allah, berikan kami sahabat yang menguatkan kami untuk bertaubat kepadamu.
Ya Allah, jauhkan kami dari sahabat-sahabat yang mengajak kami ke arah maksiat,
Ya Allah, jauhkan kami dari sahabat-sahabat yang menarik kami ke neraka Mu,
Ya Allah, jauhkan kami dari kawan yang leka,
Ya Allah, jauhkan kami dari kawan memenangkan nafsu dan perasaan.
Ya Allah, kurniakan kami kekuatan hati untuk jihad kearah agama Mu,
Dan bukanlah pintu hati kami untuk benar-benar bertaubat kepadamu.
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Allah, aku sudah semakin jauh..
Thursday, 15 May 2014
Sunday, 16 February 2014
Coming Back Stronger
Assalamualaikum wbt.
It's been more than 2 months since I last wrote here. It is not because of work demands, personal matters or health problems, but the feeling of being total hypocrite if I continue posting things, while my current-self is doing the opposite. 2 of my closest person mention that I am a hypocrite for living a life differs from what I wrote here for the past few months. I am fully aware of that, thus here the silence. Each day, my life is full of guilt and the abandonment of this reminder-blog make things worse.
Too many things happened to me over the past few months. I succumbed myself back into the dark path, even with friends who care that keep reminding. I getting big lumps on my neck, undergo an operation to remove it and get autopsied. Alhamdulillah, nothing to worry. And get myself trapped into real relationship entanglement.
Today, I am just getting over things. And gaining back my strength. After all happened, it taught me the ultimate meaning of care and friendship, which is solely because of Allah. It sounds cliché, but that's the reality. I seek forgiveness from everyone that I hurt so much again and again, and this time I'm coming back stronger, better.
It's been more than 2 months since I last wrote here. It is not because of work demands, personal matters or health problems, but the feeling of being total hypocrite if I continue posting things, while my current-self is doing the opposite. 2 of my closest person mention that I am a hypocrite for living a life differs from what I wrote here for the past few months. I am fully aware of that, thus here the silence. Each day, my life is full of guilt and the abandonment of this reminder-blog make things worse.
Too many things happened to me over the past few months. I succumbed myself back into the dark path, even with friends who care that keep reminding. I getting big lumps on my neck, undergo an operation to remove it and get autopsied. Alhamdulillah, nothing to worry. And get myself trapped into real relationship entanglement.
Today, I am just getting over things. And gaining back my strength. After all happened, it taught me the ultimate meaning of care and friendship, which is solely because of Allah. It sounds cliché, but that's the reality. I seek forgiveness from everyone that I hurt so much again and again, and this time I'm coming back stronger, better.
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