Assalamualaikum wbt.
It's been more than 2 months since I last wrote here. It is not because of work demands, personal matters or health problems, but the feeling of being total hypocrite if I continue posting things, while my current-self is doing the opposite. 2 of my closest person mention that I am a hypocrite for living a life differs from what I wrote here for the past few months. I am fully aware of that, thus here the silence. Each day, my life is full of guilt and the abandonment of this reminder-blog make things worse.
Too many things happened to me over the past few months. I succumbed myself back into the dark path, even with friends who care that keep reminding. I getting big lumps on my neck, undergo an operation to remove it and get autopsied. Alhamdulillah, nothing to worry. And get myself trapped into real relationship entanglement.
Today, I am just getting over things. And gaining back my strength. After all happened, it taught me the ultimate meaning of care and friendship, which is solely because of Allah. It sounds cliché, but that's the reality. I seek forgiveness from everyone that I hurt so much again and again, and this time I'm coming back stronger, better.
